You know.. I have been thinking about the reasons why I was punished. Nothing I say can change the fact that I actually was punished, but I feel very much that I was punished without proper proof and punished unfairly.
It was claimed that I made the accusations, but it was not supported by fact. It was supported by a mass twisting of my own words to make it seem as though I said exactly what Logan said. When in fact, I did not.
Perhaps I spoke to people whom I considered friends about the things I had heard, but ultimately it was up to them as a person to decide whether or not they believed it. I did not expect my opinions or the things I had spoken outside of YIM chats and in regular IM windows to be spread around like butter.
I have an opinion, based off of some of what Logan said – yes, but the point is… it is an opinion. I spoke of my opinion outside of game and spoke to people that I thought very much that I could trust to know my views. I feel as though I have been betrayed, mistreated, and quite literally kicked for another person’s words.
Mur, you claim to be fair. Every bit of what has happened thus far has proved otherwise. You allowed Akasha to rampage and go wild. You allowed her to treat other players like pardon my term but sh*t….and for what reason?
So far many have only come up with the conclusion that she is your wife outside of game and that it is understandable that she should get a different kind of treatment. Which is…fine, but to say that you treat everyone with equal respect when you so obviously do not is basically lying to your players.
I have to wonder if she says the things that you cannot, does the things in the game that you cannot – and whether or not you are giving her a sort of special treatment because of this. It is fine, I can’t change any of this and ultimately what you do in your game is up to you.
I can respect that it is your game.
But that does not mean I have to sit by and endure being mistreated as a person.
I have done a lot for the community and for the game. I’ve tried my damndest to unite the people and the community, even though I did so outside of game. You cannot sit by and say that my opinion overshadows what I have done for you and your creation.
I drew artwork for your birthday because I appreciated what you had done to support everyone’s opinions, in reference to the MD chats of course.
I have drawn at least 20-30 avatars for the players to use, some of which will now not be used out of…fear? Fear of what exactly? That you could possibly be wrong?
I do not believe you or Akasha truly value the artists like you claim you do. The game would merely be a concept if it were not for those who poured their time and effort into making it something more than just a bunch of words on a messy forum.
If it is true that what you and Akasha do is separate in game then you should make it so and do what is right. She is not officially game manager, and yet she acts as if she is. Did you not specifically say that you wanted more than one single GM?
Now, over the past 7-8 months I have grown to care about some of the members just as much as I care about my own family. It not only disgusts me that the game has taken such a massive unfortunate turn, but sickens me in that it is much more than a simple, harmless game now… It is very much a political game. From the way those in the game have acted recently, I do not see how anyone can say otherwise on this.
For those who are new to MD, know to watch what you think and say. Because apparently if you think against what Muratus Del Mur may want, you will be crucified and shunned for speaking your mind. MD is not a democracy, it is a dictatorship in the disguise of a democracy. Democratic ideals are said to be true but another thing entirely is done.
This is what part of MD is made up of.. people who say one thing and do another thing entirely.
[i](This was written after I basically took a pretty long break away from the game.. about a week and a half I think.. It was refreshing actually.)[/i]
Lastly, I want to say this.. that yes, I was wrong to say that you were a horrible person Mur because the point is...you aren't. You are a human being just like the rest of us, and just like the rest of the world, you have issues too.