So I've stumbled upon a conversation that took place and was made public.
Since the person who had that conversation doesn't want to talk to me in person, (and it already was made public) I believe some words are due here on the forum.
anyway, here's what I'm referring to:
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[12/01/14 12:59] Kyphis: (zzzzzz..... I sleep from 13:00:00 ST until 22:00:00 ST.... zzzzzzz)
[12/01/14 23:45] :*Mya Celestia* stomps over to the bar
[12/01/14 23:46] :*Mya Celestia* snatches a mug from the bar and throws it at the wall
[12/01/14 23:54] :Valoryn ducks as soon as he enters the quarters
[12/01/14 23:54] *Mya Celestia*:Shattered Illusions!!! He went to Shattered Illusions!!!
[12/01/14 23:54] :*Mya Celestia* throws another mug
[12/01/14 23:55] Valoryn: *ducks again* That he did...
[12/01/14 23:55] *Mya Celestia*:I didn't want to believe it *she chokes*
[12/01/14 23:56] *Mya Celestia*:I knew in my gut he would that jerk
[12/01/14 23:56] Valoryn: *stands again* Me neither. *hugs Mya* But it happened...
[12/01/14 23:56] *Mya Celestia*: *hugs Val tightly* I feel so betrayed
[12/01/14 23:58] Valoryn:You tell me... *sighs a little* He guided me in my first steps in this realm. I had him as high as a mentor. Now, I don't know what to think anymore...
[12/01/14 23:58] *Mya Celestia*:He
[12/01/14 23:58] *Mya Celestia*:He's essentially gone to the enemy.
[12/01/14 23:59] *Mya Celestia*:He couldn't have hurt us any more than he did joining them
[12/01/14 23:59] Valoryn: *nods* I know.
[13/01/14 00:01] Valoryn:But breaking all the mugs won't change that.
[13/01/14 00:01] *Mya Celestia*:He's lucky I don't have a killing item or he'd be dead
[13/01/14 00:01] *Mya Celestia*:Not that it would matter because his precious dst would just revive him
[13/01/14 00:03] Valoryn: *nods* That wouldn't change anything either.
[13/01/14 00:03] *Mya Celestia*: *sighs* I know. I'm just so angry.
[13/01/14 00:03] *Mya Celestia*:And he'd know just how angry I am
[13/01/14 00:04] Valoryn:I understand.
[13/01/14 00:04] *Mya Celestia*: (now I get how Obiwan felt when Anakin turned)
[13/01/14 00:05] Valoryn:If it makes you feel any better, you can keep throwing mugs at me. (Yes, same here too.)
[13/01/14 00:05] *Mya Celestia*: *shakes her head* It's not your fault.
[13/01/14 00:06] Valoryn: *smiles a little* I know, but sometimes it helps set the feelings that overwhelm us free.
[13/01/14 00:08] *Mya Celestia*:I'm still thinking killing him but I can't do it myself so it wouldn't have the same feeling.
[13/01/14 00:09] Valoryn: *nods in understanding* I don't think it would change anything. Not for the better, at least.
[13/01/14 00:10] *Mya Celestia*:No, it likely wouldn't. *sighs*
[13/01/14 00:11] *Mya Celestia*:Once the emotion burns off, I'll be ok
[13/01/14 00:12] Valoryn: *smiles* I know.
[13/01/14 00:12] *Mya Celestia*:At the moment, I want to beat him with a club until he's a pile of mush.
[13/01/14 00:14] Valoryn:I admit I was feeling the same way when I first saw him with that badge, a few days after our Yule ceremony.
[13/01/14 00:14] Valoryn:Now I pity him. And sometimes, pity is a stronger feeling than anger or hate.
[13/01/14 00:14] *Mya Celestia*:Pity him? Why?
[13/01/14 00:15] Valoryn:Because his roots proved to be weak and frail and that's a very bad thing for someone who calls himself a druid.
[13/01/14 00:19] *Mya Celestia*:He spits on the druids with this
[13/01/14 00:20] Valoryn: *nods* He does.
[13/01/14 00:21] *Mya Celestia*:The coward told me he was stressed out and couldn't handle the pressure in Loreroot any more.
[13/01/14 00:21] *Mya Celestia*:What pressure? I did everything!
[13/01/14 00:22] *Mya Celestia*:Couldn't be leader of the Guardians. Like he did anything there either.
[13/01/14 00:22] Valoryn:That's how I interpreted his words as well (in both the alliance chat and the forum) .
[13/01/14 00:23] *Mya Celestia*: *shakes her head* I should have known....I should have seen this coming long ago.
[13/01/14 00:23] *Mya Celestia*:I knew he was friends with her. He has been for a long time.
[13/01/14 00:24] *Mya Celestia*:Now he's in an alliance that won't care what he does
[13/01/14 00:25] Valoryn:I had a feeling he would leave, since last summer. Pure gut instinct and nothing more. I couldn't have imagined he would have joined them though.
[13/01/14 00:31] *Mya Celestia*: (I have to go make something for supper. thanks for listening)
[13/01/14 00:32] Valoryn: (No problem. I'm going to bed now, since I need to wake up early for work tomorrow, but if you need anything, I'm here.)
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First things first. I resigned from my positions and left Loreroot because of REAL LIFE pressure and tiredness. I don't see how that makes me a coward or a jerk. I simply had no time or will to keep up to date with land issues, votings, events and such.
It's also untrue, that I did nothing as land leader. Loreroot gov tags, Silvan Watch item and tags, negotiations with Council about reviving CoE are just few things I was working on. But that's not important really. As I said that was not the reason I quit. My personal life made it impossible to work further on that and other assignments.
You might wonder why not just resign from leadership and remain part of the land? Voting system is one of such reasons. Inactive (and I already missed some votes) players, especially those with huge land loyalty (over 1100) greatly lower chances of successful vote. Didn't want to drag the land down.
With my time limited I still didn't wish to leave MD. Have quite a few friends here, even if some proved to be rather fragile.
With my balance issues and relatively little fighting now I felt it necessary to be in an alliance. There are very few alliances that are neutral to any of the main lands. Without internal structure.
I fail to see how joining such alliance is joining an enemy. I do know that Mya dislikes dst, but personal dislikes are, well, personal.
SI never was hostile towards Loreroot, and even dst personal issues have ended after a deal I made (as a part of Consul work) with her stopped both her and No One's resource depletion.
There are also less important reasons why I chose SI.:
"My mind got absent, troubles from different realm weary me. My illusions have shattered. I shall step down into the shadows and quietly wander the realm"
I never was and never will be Loreroot's enemy. Even if you call me names and "pity me".
Leaving Loreroot was not easy to me. All my active time in MD was dedicated to the land. In good and worse times.
But what's really depressing is that people who had issues with my actions didn't even try to talk to me.
And whatever you say, I still am a druid that walks a shaded path.