As a more personal and general note, Im not convinced this marries up with your actual interactions with people in MD. it seems a lot more like you dont consider others, Similar to how when you disbanded GG and then suddenly realised you let your land down.
So given the fact that as far as I can see, what you wrote saying you are, and what you have shown are different it would be interesting to see your viewpoint on some of the more explosive incidents, and why you think you had empathy with people during that.